Motivation, where art thou?

So, Robert said I could post on his blog and the only thing on my mind right now, its 12:32am by the way, is how much motivation I lack in my life, what the hell is going on with me is what I want to know. Lately everything gets to me emotionally, I am no longer pressing on with school like I used to, though in my defense, that could be due to that fact that I owe my school some money and they will not let me register till I pay up... but what about my workout life? The last time I worked out was last week Saturday for just one hour; what the hell is that, just three months prior, I was health crazy, drank green smoothies, ate salads and worked out everyday for at least 35 - 60 minutes. WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME?!!!! I am too young to be going through this.... could I be depressed? To be continued... Okay so I am here to continue, 2 days later, like I said. So, I still have no motivation for anything, I don't know what I am doing wrong, I just think that maybe I am really sad on the inside and that is why I can no longer find happiness and refuge in the things that I used to find peace in, I really don't know, I just know that I need some type of help before it is too late, and I know Robert's blog is all about help and getting motivated, sorry for the wet towel, but reading about motivation does not do it for me anymore, pep talks do not do it for me anymore, I have actually found them to be very irritating now. I don't know where or who to turn to and really tell everything and not have them act like they know all the answers or that I am being too petty. I just do not need judgement and there is not a lot of people who will read this or listen to me and not think "or just do this and do that..." if it really was that easy, I would be writing about something less darker. I just don't know... I just wanna scream, hit things, throw a tantrum, but I know that I can't do those things, so I am left with my mind to try to solve this weirdness... my mind can be a really scary place sometimes. Okay I will end this now before I go on forever :-). It is currently 12:48am.